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For I fear, lest , when I come, I shall not find you such as I would, and that I shall be found unto you such as ye would not: lest there be debates, envyings, wraths, strifes, backbitings, whisperings, swellings, tumults:
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Meaning

The apostle Paul was a first-century missionary who founded many of the earliest Christian churches, including the one in Corinth — a major port city in ancient Greece. He had a long and complicated relationship with this congregation, marked by genuine affection and deep frustration. In this passage, as he prepares to visit them again, Paul names his specific fears about what he will find: eight distinct relational and community failures — quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, factions, slander, gossip, arrogance, and disorder. These were not abstract concerns; they were documented realities in that community. Notably, Paul also admits his own vulnerability: he worries that the tension might bring out a version of himself the Corinthians won't want to encounter either.

Prayer

Jesus, thank you that Paul's letter tells the truth — that even your people can be jealous, arrogant, and divisive. I see it in the people around me. Help me see it honestly in myself first. Give me the courage to name what is broken and the grace to keep showing up anyway. Amen.

Reflection

Paul is bracing for a hard reunion. He loves this church — he planted it, sacrificed for it, wrote to it repeatedly — and he is also quietly exhausted by it. So he lists, with almost clinical specificity, what he's afraid he'll find when he arrives: jealousy, gossip, arrogance, factions. Not "sin" in the abstract — these exact words, these particular relational failures he knows by name because he has seen them before. What stops me is the vulnerability buried in his list: "you may not find me as you want me to be." He's admitting that walking into a toxic situation might bring out a version of himself he's not proud of either. Even Paul. The early church wasn't a retreat center. It was full of people claiming to follow Jesus while actively tearing each other apart. Paul doesn't excuse it — he names it, one ugly word at a time. But he also keeps showing up. He keeps writing letters. He refuses to abandon people mid-mess. The question for you isn't whether your community is perfect. It's whether you're willing to name what's actually broken — starting with yourself — and still choose to stay.

Discussion Questions

1

Paul lists eight specific relational failures. Which one stands out most to you personally, and why do you think he felt the need to name each one rather than speaking in generalities?

2

Paul admits he might not show up as his best self walking into this tense situation. When has a difficult relational environment brought out a version of you that you weren't proud of?

3

The church in Corinth had real spiritual gifts and real community dysfunction at the same time. How do you hold the tension between loving a community and being honest about what is genuinely broken in it?

4

Which of the eight things Paul lists — quarreling, jealousy, anger, factions, slander, gossip, arrogance, disorder — have you personally contributed to in a community you belong to?

5

If Paul were writing a letter to your church, small group, or family, which of these eight would he most likely have to name? What is one concrete step you could take toward addressing it?

Translations

For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you not to be as I wish, and that you may find me not as you wish—that perhaps there may be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slander, gossip, arrogance and disorder;

AMP

For I fear that perhaps when I come I may find you not as I wish, and that you may find me not as you wish — that perhaps there may be quarreling, jealousy, anger, hostility, slander, gossip, conceit, and disorder.

ESV

For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish; that perhaps [there will be] strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances;

NASB

For I am afraid that when I come I may not find you as I want you to be, and you may not find me as you want me to be. I fear that there may be quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, factions, slander, gossip, arrogance and disorder.

NIV

For I fear lest, when I come, I shall not find you such as I wish, and that I shall be found by you such as you do not wish; lest there be contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, backbitings, whisperings, conceits, tumults;

NKJV

For I am afraid that when I come I won’t like what I find, and you won’t like my response. I am afraid that I will find quarreling, jealousy, anger, selfishness, slander, gossip, arrogance, and disorderly behavior.

NLT

I do admit that I have fears that when I come you'll disappoint me and I'll disappoint you, and in frustration with each other everything will fall to pieces—quarrels, jealousy, flaring tempers, taking sides, angry words, vicious rumors, swelled heads, and general bedlam.

MSG